14 April 2017

Thought of the Need for the Embodiment of True Christ Consciousness, Now

I got inspired to write a short note because all that I have heard that is currently going on in the world. I thought of Christ Consciousness not just because of the multi-faith celebrations this week, but how at this time on Earth, the embodiment of the real meaning of this is in great need, not only for the humans but for everything that is on this planet.
In the past I found this AMSR track to be to my liking, using headphones, when I needed to focus on something creative. It just felt really good and kind of hypnotic in a way after a while, which is obviously good for creative endeavors.
       If you have not yet come across this concept of "Christ Consciousness", I will briefly say according to my current understanding, it means "Consciousness of the 5th Dimension, Ascended Consciousness, Compassion". You know what the world needs now.
       So, those of us who are 'there' so to speak, it would be for the Highest Good of All for You* (*each individual one of us, making up a "we") to just Focus on Your Light-
Your Own Sacred Heart. That's all you must do right now. Tend to Your Heart. It is important to do this as the world is in a tailspin all about you. Ground. Focus. Then, you can reach out and help. You must have a reservoir to draw from. We fill our own well, then we can moisten the lips of the parched.
       We are all Beings made up of tiny particles of Energy- and these little particles (in an over simplified way to say it so not having to go and find the books where I've read it :) ) have been shown to be able to communicate with each other.
       So, when you focus on your own Loving, Divine Heart and Your Light- this Healing Presence is felt by everyone in your physical/energetic environment. If ALL of these Points of Light, embodied as Human Beings, who are spread out all over this Planet do this, the Ripple Effect would tip the scales...
       You may feel impatient for something to "happen", but it is working through deep crusty layers darkness as Earth makes this shift. We must be steadfast and believe in the Divine Love in our own Sacred heart center and stay in alignment with Divine Truth (those of you who are know what that is).
       So, I can suggests a simple way to do this, if you'd like a starting place-
   Every day, whenever it is that you wake up from your sleep, simply say, "I AM."
If you would like to put something else onto that, how about the mantra given out in one of Matt Kahn's video's, "I Am the Light, the Light I Am". Take a deep belly breath at the comma. Really feel what you're saying.
       May we all feel at ease.
Ursula Carrie

05 April 2017

Cleaning up, Clearing Out. And sometimes you just have to Sit.

I set up the page for this post about a week ago. This I remembered when I clicked and found last week's video of his Astrology for the Soul/Pele Report. I related so much to what he was saying toward the end, that I felt compelled to share the video. Because... I had set an Intention at the end of 2016 to go about doing what needed to be done to free myself up of some past financial obligations that I prefer not to take with me into the renewed life I am creating. This was not some calculated thought, rather a feeling that I was about to be moving through a space where I was to clear and cleanse further. Specifically things like- the student loan that had been hanging over me for the past 25 years and tax issues that needed resolve. There are other simple yet complicated energies of this nature (finances, insurance, etc.) that beckon attention. My Future Self is messaging me. I got the text! And when I saw Kaypacha's video last week, I thought, "Holy crap! That's exactly what I've been doing!" Apparently there are some pretty powerful astrological energies going on these days.
       There are sometimes great strides, like last month when I was whippin' right along at the accountant's office, getting it all done and feeling awesome. There have been synchronicities like yesterday morning when my acupuncturist called to reschedule because she was sick, and I wound up feeling inspired to go out and do several things that were still needed to complete some tax biz. Feeling awesome there, too, I was. Until I stopped at the post office to pick up the mail. There was a letter from my state that said my tax refund was being held until I jumped through several more hoops to prove that my child is my child and lives with me.
       So then, as is always with a great expansion, is stillness. The thing that I notice for me is that my expansions are fast and powerful which means the integration or rest cycle happens just as fast and just as deep. It can definitely feel like what is called 'depression' because just as we are on a big roll, catching up speed, gaining that momentum, the universe/energies say, "Ok, big expansion. Now Stop. Breathe. Integrate. Revaluate."  
       Today, I woke up feeling like I was in an energetic straight jacket. The first thought I had was, "Fuuuuuck!" I wanted to "do more stuff", try to "make more things happen". I want to check things off of my list! I want to get to the future!
       I kept checking in with my masters hoping for the response that I thought I wanted, and the response was the same, "Stay home." This is not always coming easily to me. I am also part of a society in which one worth is measured by how much or what one "does". A large part of me knows much better than this obviously "flawed premise", (Abraham) but that does not mean that I don't succumb.
       So, I gave up. I didn't 'give up' like I'm never going to try again, but I know that I can't push the river. I can't make the corn grow. But, I can keep coming back to the present, what I am experiencing as the 'Present'. I can flow with the Stillness that asks me to step inside. I can understand that it is good and just to simply Pause. My kid kind of brought this all back around to me this afternoon, "You're too focused on 'out there' and 'getting things done'. Disengage from this world for a little bit and chill out." 
       Now, can you believe that I was so twirled up in the tornado of pressure in my center that I was going to sweep these words under the rug. Until some moments later I was sitting here at my desk, wondering still what else I could do to push forward, the words my kid had just spoken rested on my thymus area. The intention of the words felt like it was slowly melting into my chest through my skin, like some medicine salve or balm. I felt still. And then I started writing this post. XOXO
Sometimes you just have to Sit.

22 March 2017

Recent Reminder "Be Open to Everything and Attached to Nothing" (*)

       I do that thing too, where you're still having a conversation with someone, after that person has left the room. Sometimes the actual conversation ended just because it was the natural time for the interaction to draw to close, like when I am finished with my client interaction. I enjoy these highly charged interactions with the people who come to me for clearing, because they are always buoyed by a mutual curiosity for and love of this subject matter: past and parallel lives and worlds, growth, philosophy, etc. The permutations of interesting exploration areas are endless. So, sometimes after I have concluded the session, I am sparked off on some thrilling new avenues where downloads of fresh insights can to pour into my consciousness. Therefore, in this way, this sort of 'conversation' continues.
       I have been thinking and feeling into a situation I have experienced over the course of this past month that has brought me deeper into practicing the most profound lessons of compassion and detachment. I had a synchronistic encounter with someone that I have known casually over the past 20 years or so that resulted in being commissioned to do this level one work for this person. I accepted, because I knew that it was right, that I was put in this place at this time to do what I do to help this person.
       But, immediately afterwards, I experienced some very strong resistance to doing this particular soul's work. I kept entertaining flashbacks of past interactions and how I had almost always felt bullied by this person. This was an immediate red flag to myself that said to me, "This is where you Practice compassionate detachment." Oh yes, theory won't do anything for you without practice! Yes, this meant not using the distorted lens of the past- who I was in that past and how I perceived that other person, then- but, understanding this now encounter as *a Formless Present in which two Timeless Beings have come together in 'A Moment' to do an Important Work Together*.
       I am not saying that I just had this download and everything was clear as a bell and I went at this soul's record with accuracy and abandon. No. It took a while. I need to work through some layers, and I aimed to do it quickly! Because this kind of endeavor does not work without a clear and open mind and a clear and open heart. I did the thing that works for me- I erased the person from my mind, decided that they were a stranger to me (as really most people are, as I am convinced that the only person one can really ever truly know is one's own Self- and even this is a challenge for most people). I realize that the reason that I prefer my clients to be unknown to me is that it makes it so easy to be non-judgmental when I have no personal history with someone. Talk about 'stepping up the game'. This Soul really brought it to me!
       One of the things that I appreciate about they way that I work and know myself is- I know when my accuracy is 'off' because I feel it as certain distinct bodily sensations. It isn't just the feeling of knowing that I do not attempt to 'work' when I feel physically or mentally or emotionally tired, stressed, had a difficult day, or what have you. I understand that I am not being clear or non-judgmental when I feel my heart pinch closed, or a pressure in my head at the third eye, or my throat feels blocked. It varies, but any of my personal physical sensations let me know when I am in no shape to get accurate information from some Beloved's Record. And, that is the time to step back, way back... way, way back! 
       So, I stepped back then went at it again, and again, in small sessions until the entire soul profile was completed, blocks/restrictions cleared and all organized to deliver to one amazing Being! Whew!
       This was some the 'conversation' that I have been having off and on since that client left the room. One thing was Me, marveling again, about how we all are assisting one another on the trail to our own awakening.  These 'assists' come along wearing forms of all shapes and sizes. And, how challenging it can be for us humans to make space for others to change. I can say that because I have experienced not feeling the room to be who I evolved into with many people from my past, and I have also been the one who could not find the space for someone else to show me who they had become. And I think/feel to myself, "Damn! I of all people..." when I caught myself looking at this being as if they were the one that I knew before, before the clearing, before this clean slate was created. Another deep lesson for me: total Surrender to the Now. I ask myself, "How can I now Be with this being, completely freed from the past and now in this present state of clarity..." This requires a slowness and a steady, gentle directing of the Attention to the Present and into the Heart. This can be scary territory. It seems to be why we're here, though :) And how unfair to unconsciously pigeon-hole someone back into a reality that they are no longer experiencing.
I AM Present. I AM with You in the Now. Because we live, we grow. And so it goes...
Love from, Ursula Carrie
(*) this is a quote that stuck with me from Serena Dyer and Wayne Dyer's collaboration, Don't Die With Your Music Still in You