I am cleaning the living room this late morning. I'd rearranged part of it over the past few months, but had abandoned the project for the cozier energies of my room. The living room has never felt right in this place. I am regularly rearranging and disposing of the furnishings and attracting new pieces. Still, it just doesn't get on. Anyway, there's several high stacks of books and magazines on the loveseat that I am meaning to go through since I took their bookcase for my papermaking supplies. There's a book under a stack of binders. The binders are full of papers that help me to remember things we've done or experienced. I pull the book out. It's Auto Repair for Dummies. Many years ago I had this fantasy that I wanted to be able to fix my own car. I don't have that dream anymore, but I kept the book for information. I looked up what is going on with the underside of my car.
Yes, and What about The WINDOW?
Well, opening the window allows fresh air to flow into the vehicle. Air is the element associated with the Mind/the Mental Body. (Also, the window must be rolled up and down at the toll booths, etc. which facilitates the journey.)
I must admit, nearly immediately after I'd finished the bookings last Friday before I went to work, I started to allow my mind to get cluttered up with a bunch of thoughts that surely didn't belong there. I started to think about the drive, how many miles and hours between each stop. I started to allow my emotions to become tangled up in the stress of the distances between each stop, and feeling into the fatigue that I may feel at the end of each drive day. I started to think about how I could make it to each hotel in time for the very beginning of check in, and how we could stay until check out time but still make it to the next place for that check in time, so I would get the best value/amount of hotel time for my dollar (the most bang for my buck), and trying to work out in exactly how many miles I would have to stop to fill up the gas tank, and how much that is going to cost exactly, and finding those towns on the maps I'd saved, and researching every restaurant that may have food I can eat near to the hotel, and how late they're open....
|(this photo spoke to me, from the internet)|
Let me say that, By Monday (the day before my car repair appointment), I was completely swirled up in stress, I could barely remember to take in a breath. No wonder the air suspension broke again on Tuesday only after a dozen miles! I am completely focused on cleaning up my energetic act! Needless to say, I haven't been allowing that fresh breeze to swirl throughout my Mind/Mental Body. And I had been turning a happy, fun exciting thing into worry and stress. Now how is that good for anyone? I am so thankful to be awakened to all of this- NOW!
TIME TO "PIVOT", as Abraham says.