16 June 2018

Boundaries Riff

from the Goddess Oracle 
Whenever I feel that I have to draw a boundary line for myself when dealing with another human- and that human reacts by spewing insults, blame and tries to manipulate me to feel like I'm the most disgusting woman in the world....
*I KNOW I did the right thing by setting that boundary*.
Don't be afraid to claim your space. I am just learning to do this, but with an important element that I did not have before: If they don't like it, that's just too bad- for them.

I no longer indulge in old conditioning
[feeling guilty for not being "nice",
as we women are taught almost from the cradle]
that would have me *abandon myself*
in order to have someone else's approval. 
Because, in the end, those people never cared for me anyway- unless they were able to use [or manipulate me through my character weaknesses] me as their own personal power supply.
And guess what? Right after I had to draw that line, just last night, all of that 'not a nice girl' guilt/crap started to encroach on me, and the person, in their rant, went exactly there, sending a message calling me ugly and a failure, and whatever else they could to break me down.
I took out my Goddess oracle deck and asked: "Who am I embodying, right now?"
Of course, I got Durga!
I'm going to give 'menopause' a big fat kiss on the forehead today, since I may not have gotten here to this 'change' without "The Change".
If I have 33 more years to go on this trip- I'm not trying to bullshit around with them.

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